Tag Archives: pain

what am I following? (7 Dec 2011)

24 Jan

what am I following?

the wind is too strong
the sun is too bright
the sea is enormous

I can only sing to the earth
each day is new, and each day is my last

that dark purple (7 Dec 2011)

24 Jan

I could paint this picture

it is my life
that dark purple in between the trees
that colour didn’t exist
until I saw me
in a rage so heavy I couldn’t lift
the light in front of my eyes

it is my life
that dark purple bleeds
between my knees, it claims all space
and light

there is no light

I rest here in what has become
my dark and shitty compost
my new life

city gale (12 Aug 2011)

13 Oct

I am walking
city gale
my eyes sting
red, my lungs
are screaming
a pack of dogs

strangers can’t see
the wind whipping
through me
killing the animal
that learnt how to love
and live in these streets

at night (10 Aug 2011)

13 Oct

at night I can hear the stream
it pulls me back
no matter where I go
in my head

in my head
there is always the swirl and froth
or languid passing
of liter and debris

everything is on a journey
over clouds, we try to fly
always the sunrise disappears
or never ends

when I leave, when I leave
I hear my thumping heart
I feel my beating head
at night

if the stream were to stop talking
the ocean would know
its death

contract (Aug 2011)

7 Oct

What contract did your soul sign
that wanted to hurt me so much?

what love did I need
that could penetrate so deep?

stranger (01 Aug 2011)

2 Oct

I can not lay this pain
aside

I heave and I heave
for one breath of peace

I am on the floor
beside the toilet

the full length mirror in front

and when I look at her

I am the stranger
to all that is before me

I hate (23 July 2011)

2 Oct

hate is a piercing word
and even though I love
you, I had to scream it

I had to – like a wave has to
disembody itself on a rock

I HATE YOU

the last time I screamed those words
was into the face of my mother

I was fifteen and
she got more churned up
than the frothing white sea

that receives me now

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